"Truly, you are a God who hides himself, O God of Israel, the Savior." ( Isaiah 45:15 )
In the past few decades, after debating with Christians over the famous cosmological and teleological arguments, atheists and skeptics seem to have moved away a bit from the arena of natural theology now launching into a more philosophical argumentation against the existence of God: the divine hiddenness.
The truth is that believers in God have been struggling themselves with this one since ancient times.
"Why do you hide your face and count me as your enemy?" ( Job 13:24 )
And Psalm 88.
The only Psalm that starts in silence and ends in silence. Many Bible commentators say that Psalm 88 proves the Bible because if you were trying to convince someone to join your religion why in the world would you include this hopeless lament in your holy book?
I think we forget that in the beginning God created man to live in a perfect garden environment while enjoying a close personal relationship with him. We are the ones that didn't trust God's divine order, falling into sin because we thought we knew better than the God of the Universe.
After the fall, we were the ones hiding, not God.
Some will say, "Why doesn't God just write across the sky 'I am God - here I am!' Or why doesn't he come down and do a bunch of miracles and prove himself to us? Why doesn't he just make himself known plainly?" For one thing, the Bible is clear that seeing is not always believing. ( Luke 16:19-21, Matthew 28:16-20 )
Some atheists insist that if a perfectly all-loving God exists then he would make himself plainly known to his creatures, especially to "nonresistant nonbelievers." I'm skeptical about this term. I'm still thinking about it. The debate doesn't take into account any of the other attributes of God. They argue under the assumption that a sentimental love from an obvious God is the best way for him to pursue a loving relationship with his creatures.
Is it?
What if his divine hiddenness IS how God is showing himself to us?
Since the Bible so often portrays our relationship to God as a marriage, maybe this is how God knows to best pursue us. Maybe, just maybe, God chooses to reveal himself this way because through the angst and the struggle, a true, beautiful, trusting relationship is formed. Not just crashing into our lives with a lot of noisy fanfare and pollution, but slowly drawing us to himself like a loving groom woos his future bride.
Maybe we've become so fixated on finding him in such a big way that we've missed the whispers and the wooing. When we ask for him to please make himself known to us, maybe he is. Maybe we're the ones missing it. Our lives reflect an adventure or a romance; I'm back to the fairytale. It makes sense God would pursue us in ways that cause us to look inside of our own hearts and wrestle with them.
Personally, I know full well God pursued me in my waywardness; although at first I couldn't see him. There was darkness and a silence that chased after me and tormented my soul day and night for months until I broke and surrendered to God for help. I realized later, to my astonishment, that God allowed the darkness and the silence to pursue me continually, for my good, to bring me to the end of myself and into his arms for all that I needed. He knew in the midst of those circumstances, I would cry out to him in utter humility. God was in the storm. The deafening thunder was his voice not the enemy's.
It is never going to be what we expect.
How can it be? God is a infinite, transcendent, holy Being. And we are finite and small with little understanding. And in addition to all this, for now, we see dimly Paul tells us in 1 Corinthians. Why do we think that God is on our level? If I'm being honest, I have no interest in serving a God who is my size and would take directions from me. That's scary.
This Holy God of ours created the entire universe and set its order and established his purposes within it, and we think we know how things ought to go better than him? How pompous and prideful.
That doesn't sound like a "nonresistant" attitude; it sounds more like animosity. The Scriptures are clear that those who are humble are the ones who God doesn't resist. "God resists the proud but gives grace to the humble." ( 1 Peter 5:5-6, James 4:6-7 ) We have to admit we need him if we ever expect to find him. God is under no obligation to show himself to prideful creatures. Or even humble creatures for that matter. But his mercy says he does.
I've come to believe that divine hiddenness is an important aspect of our faith and of our worship. Some atheists ( and Christians ) think they know how God should best respond to his creatures. This thought displays a misunderstanding of the love of God and takes great liberties in thinking one can figure out God's purposes and procedures in dealing with his 'beloved' children. God alone knows best how to cultivate a relationship with his offspring; He's a perfect Father.
God may seem hidden to us, but we are never hidden to him nor our pain or brokenness.
"O LORD all my longing is before you: my sighing is not hidden from you." ( Psalm 38:9 )
"Where shall I go from your Spirit? Or where shall I flee from your presence?" ( Read Psalm 139 )
God has not only seen all of our sighing, but our sins and our flaws, and he sent Jesus into fallen humanity, as perfect humanity, to live and die for us.
God did not hide his most beloved treasure from us - His Son. Jesus willingly stepped inside of human baby flesh, hung on a cross and then raised from the dead because he said that he came to do the Father's will. But we must have eyes to see and ears to hear. We can't harden our hearts toward him.
I've found that the strongest believers in the faith, not the weakest, are those who have wrestled with divine hiddenness. I've found them to be the most devoted disciples of Christ with the most beautiful and trusting relationships with him. I'm drawn to those saints. They have a relationship with Jesus that I long for, and one that I am determined to pursue.
I've found as I continue to draw near to God in my quiet time with him each day, not allowing anything else to monopolize that space, that he is drawing near to me, revealing himself slowly. This philosophical truth won't convince any nonresistant nonbelievers, but I hope it will inspire them to keep searching and asking questions and to consider praying if they have not already.
Jesus said: "Ask, and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you." ( Matthew 7:7 ) If you are truly seeking God, I believe you will eventually find him. Don't give up.
This week as the dogs and I made our way to the barn through the frozen cow field, the grass had drooped and was curled over facing the hard soil, their blades burdened underneath a heavy frost. It reminded me that the winter season is once again at hand, relentless in its icy pursuit to find us and crimp us beneath its callous wings.
A few moments later as the sun began to rise over the beautiful blue ridges, her beams stretched out across the frozen field reflecting a million shimmering diamonds in the frozen ground. It was breath-taking. Silence was given a voice. Darkness had come to light. This is God.
There is a divine purpose in the hard, hidden tundra of life, in the stillness and the suffering. It is difficult to imagine, but at just the right moment, when divine hiddenness has had its perfect way, God will reveal our glorious sparkles.
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